i can still feel you here..

Your breath upon my cheek whispering
those words I long to hear.
I can feel your heart as it beats to mine,
in heated passion we both feel.

You hold me from behind, telling me how you
feel.
With such passion i can tell.
My temperature rises to the warmth of
your touch.

I can't control this feeling I have, my body shakes
with desire to come back to you now.

please take me in your loving arms, and tell me
you desire me as I you.

I can still feel you asking me to come back to you because i know we are made for each other

though we are not together

but, i can still feel you here..!!

Yesterday,i had accounts lecture in my classes.this is a subject which i can nver understand even if some great and intelligent person comes and teaches me.Our lecturer is wasting his time in shubbing his arse off and teaching us.he teaches us so brilliant that hardly 5-6 people can understand.

yesterday,i and my friends had planned to bunk his lecture and force him to throw us out.well,this is what he did after some particular juncture.first,my two friends were thrown out very abdruptly because they were reaching their limits of rubbishness.lol.whole class seemed to be enjoying it though.i got so damn bugged ,was sitting alone and staring my sir like i would just eat him up.I tried to concerned the hell out of me but as usual,i failed !!I must say understanding accounts is a hard nut to crack.then I walked away durin my break and called my friends in Mc.Donalds..

*phew* i wonder how will i clear my 12th ?? is there anyone who is good in accounts ?? you mind traching?

There is no reason for which i should write this,there is no reason for which i should not write this.

well,there is a say "expect less and you will be happy".anyway,i really did not go with this.I and my friends after a very long time went to visit bandra fair hoping that we will feel good spending time together.but we were really in a mis-conception.we started off really well,everybody seemed to be enjoying cool breeze at bandstand fort and even the fair.i and my female friends got beautiful earrings for ourselves.Being an atheist,i still bought a christ keychain for my handbag and a ring too.We were really having fun but somewhere i don't know i was feeling little awkward and kinda uncomfortable with them.nobody knew what to say.But still we guffed up to kill our time by doing some masti on the rocks by passing comments on the couples making out there,sprinklingwater on each other etc.then we headed toward C.C.D to grab a coffee.as soon as we reached there,i got a call from my mom asking me to come home fast as i was getting late for my class.so i had to leave or else my mom would get schitzo.so they got mad at me but i couldn't help it.So,i just came home.i was feeling really down so i went off to sleep.

*sighs*

i wish i could be there foe some more time.

ZzZzZzZzZ ...>>>

*pat on the mouth*
another crappy and shit all day on this week....!! no one can sense how retard i am feeling.just sitting like an ideal mind and staring at any absurd picture.there is nothing i can do to stop it.no mood to go for attending classes test(as i never do),no mood to hang out with friends,no mood to even step outa the house.may be its because of tensions for boards...errr ....... neaahh !!! sunday is really tiring..
*yawn*
may be i should go to sleep..
ciao !!

PEACE !!!

the final goodbye !!

i thought about you today and for the first time, it wasn't about the past or the lies .it wasn't about the lies or it wasnt about hurt or the tears.it wasnt about our broken friendship oe what we used to wish our future would be.it was about the end toall that and the beginning of a friendship !!

so i dont know why people say love never ends in friendship because mine for you has .....

i cant say how i feel,

cant say if my heart would heal,

but i always knew from the start i nver really had your heart.

so leave me now,before i cry.

the pain is too much to say goodbye

but always remeber,each tear i shed is a word left unsaid............

last night i dreamt about you

Last night I dreamed.
Everything was picture perfect, beautiful, lovely and funny too.
Last night I thought
that someone was here with me, sitting beside me and wiping my tears,
to make me feel that he is still here.
Last night I smiled,
drowned in beauty, pierced by perfection,
yet feeling so much mirth as I sank into the abyss.
Last night I lied.
I told myself I wouldn't be alone.i will foeget every tear,every fear...

when I awoke,
made myself believe, yearn, and hope.
Last night I hoped
that I could stay forever in that moment of perfection and peace.
Last night I dreamed...
That someone still loves me.........

I am bored of being bored

i'm bored of sleeping...m bored of eating...m bored of playing.....m bored of studying...m bored of watching tv....i am bored of being bored !!!
am bored now n' if ur readin' how bored i am...than ur deifinitely bored !!

still if it doesnt help ur boredom den keep getting bored..lol

PeAcE !!!!

Ocean of tears > > >

Sometimes when I'm alone I cry because I'm on my own.

The tears I cry are bitter and warm.

They flow with life but take no form

I cry because my heart is torn ..

And I find it difficult to carry on, If I had an ear too confide in, I would cry among my special friends

But who do u know that stops that long.
To help another carry on The world moves fast and it would rather pass U by.
Then to stop and see what makes u cry
It's painful and see and Sometimes I cry And no one cares ..

My first salary > > >

My 11th std vacations have been the longest vacations in my entire life!! we had got like 4 months holidays which somewhat sucked to the core.i had recently got shifted to a new place where I had no friends to hang out with. i tried making some but ended up by making just one named swati.she had just appeared for her H.S.C and was waiting for her results.In the start it was all fun because i could do anything i wanted..sleep,eat,dance etc etc.but later it really started to bug me like anything.

I always wanted to run a western dance class on my own.I didn't know my dream would really come true one day.I and swati decided to start a dance class in our building itself.a small class as a beginning.So,we made brochures,distributed all over.Everyday i used to call her home and choreograph on the songs which were to be taught to kids.Everything was going pretty well good.On the first day of our class,we were eagerly waiting for them to come but hardly 2-3 people turned up.we were so damn disappointed.we then planned to reschedule our timings and dates and start all over again..whole day,i used to scratch my head for some innovative ideas for brochures.atlast,my friend helped me in that and it turned out to be really appreciable.Fortunately,i got 10 kids enrolling for their names.there was no limit of my happiness.that time i dont know what was wrong with swati,she never picked up my call or replied to my messages.so i decided to start all by myself. the first day of my dance class was really really good.kids were so co-operative and talented as well.the class was of just one month because i had my mom side family coming over to my place.so i had to finish it in that time.i really didn't realise how 1 month passed.it was really fun to be with them. ^_^

Uhmm i had collected rs.3000/- as my SALARY(feels so great to call it as a salary).I just wanted to spend it to the fullest.I and my cousins went to roam and that time i thought i would spend it but we were really short on time so i thought to treat them some other day.while returning back,i kept my handbag at d back of the rick.suddenly some problem occured in the rick so we had to change the rick and that time i forgot to take my handbag in which i had kept the money.As soon i reached home,i asked my sister for my bag.she said it was with me only.that time,for almost 10 seconds i was completely blank. didn't know how and what to react.I went to my mom and told her about it so she said there is nothing i can do now.i cant get it back..that time i bursted out in tears.whole day i used to cry like anything and used to curse myself for being so careless. MY FIRST SALARY mahnn . . . .*sighs* i wont ever forget this day ever in my life.>_<

for you,my pain was just a game > > >

He doesn't share the same pain i do
I still wanna be with you

you don't share the same pain i do
you don't think about me..
I spend every second of my day thinking About you
You don't share the same pain i do

You don't replay all the memories over in Your head
I'm telling you, you don't share the same Pain i do

You really don't understand my pain
I have to lie to everyone
I have to hide everything everyday
I'm walking, talking a lie

You don't understand the pain I'm in
We don't share the same pain....

why i still love you?

Why does it have to hurt inside?
Why do I have to cry each night?
I think I have to walk on by...
Cuz I'm starting to lose my sight...

What is it that changed your mind?
Who is it that keeps you blind?
Why did you change so fast?
Did you really have to leave me behind?

I start to think about all we had
And how it turned this way...
I guess I'll have to leave your side,
And turn my face away...

Although my soul will die...
Although my heart will cry...
I've got nothing else to do,
I'm hurt deep inside

But although I'll leave your side,
You'll be always on my mind...
My heart and soul will ache for you,
Every day and every night...

You're my never-ending love,
The love that keeps me alive...
You're the one I'll love forever,
Although it hurts inside.....

Am I the only one for you ??